D-Day A Day Behind

     June 6, 2012... A day that would have been remembered my entire life if sixteen year old Me's dreams came true. June 6, 1944... An actual day that is remembered throughout the world.

     I want to fill everyone in on what my plans were as a young adult for this day. I would be wearing a beautiful white dress with my hair in loose curls down my back and a gorgeous bouquet of flowers overflowing. Walking down the most beautiful aisle towards the man of my dreams. Or, who I thought was the man of my dreams. Yep, a couple of years ago if you would have asked me what I would have done yesterday, I would have told you I was getting married. This isn't something I normally think about anymore or even discuss with most people, even my relatives, but yesterday I couldn't get it off my mind. I would be a married woman today if he would have been the man I needed and knew he could be. Now every once in a while I'll mention my ex, and we did spend a lot of time together. He had my childhood, my young adulthood, if you will. I gave nearly five years of my life to this man and he gave me his as well. I didn't know anyone but him and his love. I learned a lot about life through his eyes and I'm sure he learned a lot about how to be an adult through mine. When we decided to end things I made a commitment not to waste my time looking back and wishing things had gone a different way, I promised I wouldn't regret the decision that I made. And quite honestly I don't regret the things that I did and I don't look back and wish they would have gone differently. I believe that the person I am today has been made from the person I was then and the decisions I have made. I do however like to think back and see how things were going and where I would be right now if we had made different choices in our relationship. I would be a married woman right now and who knows if I would be happy or not, I'm sure I would be. I think about the horrible things that happened throughout world war II and the destruction that was caused and the enormous amount of hope D-Day brought to many who were captives. I wanted that hope for our relationship and I wanted that sigh of relief that I know should never come when you are looking to be married. It should not be a relationship on edge and relief should not be a word used when talking about how you feel after you are finally married. Now I am not going to pretend that all of our relationship was great or that it was all awful, but it was a critical part of my life and I will always remember what came of it. This post is in remembrance of those who have fallen in war and those who have fallen in love.


--Ashley