Get Moving: A Blog Post About Meeting Goals

     I set a goal in January to be more active. It is now half way through the year and I have come to the agreement that I have fulfilled this goal. I am now going out with friends a lot more and moving my body more consistently than I had been previously. I have also enrolled in a gym membership, which has been rarely used thus far, and have been swimming more frequently as the weather gets warmer. Now being more active does not a healthy body make, but it can help. So my next goal for the second half of the year, or less if it doesn't take that long, is to have a regular schedule for "working out". Not only having a schedule, but sticking to it. After I have this mastered for a few weeks then I will work on actively focusing on my nutrition to go along with working out and being more active. I am actually a little proud of myself. Now with being more active I haven't seen a change in the scale, but that could be because the more I go out, the more calories I consume, but I will be working on that too. I really could use some silent support too, Just to know that people support what I'm doing is good enough for me. I don't really need anyone to push me a certain direction, but it is always good to know that I have the support of good friends who care.

-- Ashley

D-Day A Day Behind

     June 6, 2012... A day that would have been remembered my entire life if sixteen year old Me's dreams came true. June 6, 1944... An actual day that is remembered throughout the world.

     I want to fill everyone in on what my plans were as a young adult for this day. I would be wearing a beautiful white dress with my hair in loose curls down my back and a gorgeous bouquet of flowers overflowing. Walking down the most beautiful aisle towards the man of my dreams. Or, who I thought was the man of my dreams. Yep, a couple of years ago if you would have asked me what I would have done yesterday, I would have told you I was getting married. This isn't something I normally think about anymore or even discuss with most people, even my relatives, but yesterday I couldn't get it off my mind. I would be a married woman today if he would have been the man I needed and knew he could be. Now every once in a while I'll mention my ex, and we did spend a lot of time together. He had my childhood, my young adulthood, if you will. I gave nearly five years of my life to this man and he gave me his as well. I didn't know anyone but him and his love. I learned a lot about life through his eyes and I'm sure he learned a lot about how to be an adult through mine. When we decided to end things I made a commitment not to waste my time looking back and wishing things had gone a different way, I promised I wouldn't regret the decision that I made. And quite honestly I don't regret the things that I did and I don't look back and wish they would have gone differently. I believe that the person I am today has been made from the person I was then and the decisions I have made. I do however like to think back and see how things were going and where I would be right now if we had made different choices in our relationship. I would be a married woman right now and who knows if I would be happy or not, I'm sure I would be. I think about the horrible things that happened throughout world war II and the destruction that was caused and the enormous amount of hope D-Day brought to many who were captives. I wanted that hope for our relationship and I wanted that sigh of relief that I know should never come when you are looking to be married. It should not be a relationship on edge and relief should not be a word used when talking about how you feel after you are finally married. Now I am not going to pretend that all of our relationship was great or that it was all awful, but it was a critical part of my life and I will always remember what came of it. This post is in remembrance of those who have fallen in war and those who have fallen in love.


--Ashley

My Great Friends are Amazing!

     So I have realized that I have been blessed with some pretty good friends in my life. Even if I don't stay in one place and can't see them very often, my friends are always there and really great to me. Last night I was stuck at a bar with my roommate sitting in cigarette smoke and sick. She was really having a great time with her friends and did not want to bring me home, so I sent a message to Larry who came and picked me up no questions asked. Now it isn't so bad to just pick someone up from a public place, but I live about 25 to 30 minutes away from his house and he drove me home and didn't ask for one thing back. This morning, I slept through my alarm and a friend that I work with came by my house just to make sure I was up and ready for work. She is a lifesaver! Without Khristy I would be losing my job due to absences! I am so grateful for my friends and their amazing sweet hearts! I will be living a more giving life today because I have been inspired by their great spirits!

(Time to get better now!)

--Ashley

Halfway To Halloween!! (well.. yesterday)

     Yesterday was halfway to Halloween (May 31st) and I went to a costume party at a local bar with the girls. (Khristy and Stephany) And we all actually dressed up. Stephany was the devil in a blue dress and Khristy was also a devil in a red dress with leather thigh high boots!! Yes she got a lot of shots from randoms. I wore all black with cat ears and a necklace tag. It was really fun to go dancing and spend time with my close friends. I also got to meet a couple of young men last night that made me feel like people are actually interested in me and I'm not always "the other friend." I just like the attention, and sometimes I feel like that is a down point for me, but it was all in fun. I wouldn't marry any of them, but it's nice to get the attention, especially because I've been single and miss having the companionship of some one's company. Well hopefully I can meet someone who is actually interested in a relationship and not just my company.

-- Ashley