Realizations

     I have come to realize a lot of things, 1) No matter how small a piece of hair is, it will clog your shower drain. 2) No matter how careful you are at shaving your legs, there will come a point in time where you will cut your self. 3)No matter how carefully you take care of a cut, it will take time to heal.
These are all random facts that affect every part of my life. Even if you have the most extravagant plans, one small bump in the road can ruin the rest of your trip; even if you are extremely careful at all things, you will make a mistake; and no matter how hard you try to convince yourself that you aren't hurting inside, time is sometimes the only remedy to heart ache.
     I don't think I have all the answers, I don't think I know everything (all the time), but I do know where I can find the answers, who I can trust, and I know that after I die, the only thing that I will have is the knowledge that I've learned in this life. I want to remind myself daily that sometimes it takes a negative situation to teach me something positive. Not every day is going to be a happy ice cream day. And these things are okay, I have decided that I'm okay with having trying times and being upset, failure, despair, sadness, being lonely. Because these are the things that are going to shape me, these are the things that are going to create who and what I am as an adult, a wife, a mother, a friend.
And if no one reads my realizations, if no one ever lays eyes on this entry, I will know with out a Shadow of a doubt, that who and what I am is from the trying times. Who and what I am is from the sorrows I have carried. Who and what I am is shaped from the people who are standing next to me at the end of the day when the wolves come out.

     I'll end today's entry with a quote from one of my favorite people in history, and I also share his birthday.
"You may not realize it when it happens, but a kick in the teeth may be the best thing in the world for you."  ~Walt Disney

--Ashley